'I am not at peace. I haven't been since you've known me. If I didn't come here, I would've done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life,' he wrote.

He won't be around to promote his upcoming album, but promised fans that it will be coming out.

If all goes well his Mescudi's recovery, he hopes to be back in time for Complexcon. The music festival takes place on Nov. 5 and 6 this year, where he's looking forward to sharing plenty of 'high fives and hugs.'

'Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry,' he wrote.